So there are some days when you get up and you just know it is going to be a good day.  There are other days when you get up and you know it is just going to be crap (pardon the wording), when nothing you do goes right.  Then there are the days when you get up,  plod along and then life goes and……. well goes and slaps you in the face.  Today turned out to be one of those days!

5 weeks ago I had my bloods done and they were a little off.  3 weeks ago I had my bloods done and they were a little offer (if you know what I mean ;o)  On Monday I had my bloods done again and today I heard that they were a little more off.  So what does that mean?  Well it means that I have to go down to Glasgow next week with my big girl pants on and they are BIG.  It means that I have to have a bone marrow biopsy on Monday (which I hate as it is kind of on the painful side) and then meet with my doctor on Tuesday for the results.  It means that at that moment I am holding on to that life raft called remission with both hands while the water is getting rougher and the sharks are circling.  It means that I had to tell my family that today could have been better.  It means that if you are a person of faith please send up a prayer and if you are not just send me some happy thoughts if you can (oooh or chocolate would be nice ;o).  It means that I am having to prepare for the worst and hope for the best.  What it really means is that if you have stuck along for the ride thus far things may be about to get bumpy but I am sure we will cope.  Love you all xxxx