How time flies

Today is a very special day for me. On this day 2 years ago I was first taken in to hospital and told that I had ALL. Up until that point leukaemia was only a word to me, a scary word, but just a word – now it was real and something I had to beat. As I sit here now and write this I do realise how lucky I am. So many people have lost this fight, old, young, married, single, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, sons and daughters it does not discriminate against who it takes, but take it does. Yet here I am. Over the years I have never wondered why I ended up with leukaemia but I have wondered why I am still here when so many other are not. I wish I could tell you that I have an answer but I don’t. What I am however is SO grateful. Grateful to still be here, grateful to God, grateful to my family, grateful to my friends, grateful to the strangers who have donated blood and so very grateful to all the staff who have helped me have this second chance. The person I am now is very different from the person I was 2 years ago. I worry more about the people I love and less about me. I try to be a nicer, better version of myself. There is much from my past that I am not proud of but I look to the future now and hope to see a better version of myself appearing. While I am still having treatment I can see the end coming (no, not like that ;o) and I know now that I am going to reach that 5 year cancer free mark where people can say that they are cured and I will pass it and keep moving onward. I don’t know what is round the corner, none of us do, but I know that I am wining the battle in one of the toughest fights I will ever have and that makes today a very special day indeed.