Can’t sleep tonight (which is a change as that is all I seem capable of doing these days), so I thought I would let you know that yes I am actually in the land of the living (just!).  So many times in my past I have faced challenges which were hard (or I thought were hard)  but nothing, absolutely nothing like this.   Even just the energy taken to write this so far has my arms shaking which is so not like me.  There have been moments in the last week where I have not been sure I could get through the next minute never mind the next hour or day but I have, only because of the prayers and good wishes I know that are out there supporting me onward.  A transplant, I know now, is not something you can ever really prepare for as it would appear to be something that zaps every last drop out of you before even thinking of rebooting your system and I am so ready for that to start.  On the plus side the staff here are amazing, you could not get better, and the level of care is first rate and beyond.   For those of you who have been in contact and have not heard back from me, just let me say thank you now and I promise some time in the very near future I will be in contact but for now I am going to find something that does not involve my brain or my arms to pass the time.  Love always xxxx