Living a bit.

Two posts in under a week, oooh I must be avoiding writing an essay again! Yes it is due on Thursday but that is not the point….well not the entire point.   So today I had one of these moments (lets call this post overshare) where having  decided I was going to put myself out there and try and meet someone (remember my bucket list/New Year resolutions) I was doing the usual just meeting talk, where are you from? what do you do? and I had to pause and say well actually at the moment I don’t do anything.  I then had to go on and explain why I am living the good life and use the L word.  Now while all my nearest and not so nearest know that I have ALL telling someone new that I have been sick (but am getting better) is not easy as even in my head it sounds a bit negative.  On the plus side this person did not run for the hills (yet) but even if they had I guess the more times I do this the easier it will be.  Anyway best get back to essay avoidance ….. P.S. I hope you all had a fantastic Easter xxx

Still alive.

It has been pointed out (thank you mother) that I have been rather quiet of late on here and that maybe I should let people know that I am still alive (well you know what I mean).  So here goes….  At the end of January I felt fantastic, ready to take on the world or at least go back to work, but then after my last round of Glasgow chemo I started feeling awful again.  There were some points where even sitting at the table was too much for me and I spent days just living on the sofa.  However thankfully that passed but I have never quite made it back to how I was feeling in January and that is annoying.  Fatigue is a funny thing, it is something more than being tired and it is something that I seem to be facing daily.  There are some days that are fantastic (and I know on these days I cram too much in) but many days I wake up more exhausted than when I went to bed.  I am so lucky however to have the friends and family that I have as feeling sorry for myself is not an option (again thank you mother).  I am also lucky that I have the birds and the bees (no comments please) as looking after them gives me something to do each day no matter how awful I feel.  I also know that no matter how bad I feel there are those that are worse off and I do thank God for each day that I have to annoy those closest to  me (if you have a gift use it, that is what I say ;o)