Back down to Glasgow on Sunday and I can’t say that I am looking forward to it.  I am enjoying being home and it has almost been one month without chemo and thus I am feeling much better (although balder) for it.  It is not the going down (as I have great friends in Glasgow) or even the chemo that is the problem but rather the after effects I hate but I guess it will all be worth it in the end.  Since I have been home I have caught up with friends, started going out for walks, planting for the spring and yesterday I sorted out the duck pond (and yes I could hear the doctors shouting at me in my head) which now has happy ducks in it.  I have also started to go back to church and am feeling much better within myself for doing so.  While I became a Christian at 16 I let my bipolar take control of many areas of my life and in doing so destroyed my relationship with God.  Now I am working on building that back up and I hope that the person I am becoming is a nicer, more well rounded version of the one I was before I got ALL.I am not proud of many of the choices I have made in life but I have been lucky enough to have been given a second chance and intend to use it to the best of my ability.  I am not sure what the future holds but I know that I am back on the right path and this time I intend to stay on it.