So back in hospital again, neutrophils are down to 0.1 and I am needing more blood AGAIN. Please, please donate if you can – it is so important for so many people. Being back in hospital is always interesting with new staff and new roommates to get to know This time the people I am in with are really quite ill but they were short of beds so here I am. Today I had a big decision to make about whether I was going to start my course now or in six months time. In the end I decided 6 months would be the best idea as I have no energy at the moment and still don’t know what the next step of my treatment involves. While I have never been really “sick” since that first infection I am always completely exhausted in a way that I have never been before. It is hard to explain how bone deep it goes and how sometimes even replying to a message or making a phone call takes a Herculean amount of effort. There are some days even getting to the hospital is a killer and I am not daft enough to think I can then sit and study afterwards. So I have a six month reprieve and by then I hope to be on my feet again, fully fit and ready to go and if not? Well we will cross that bridge when we get to it.